Depression seems to be going around lately, at least in the little corner of the internet I frequent. There was this post from Kendi, and this one from Jenny. And I’m pretty sure Dooce is still dealing with some stuff.
Are you sad? I’ve been feeling a little down. Not depression, but anxiety. Which some would say is a slight distinction, and I guess it is, but right now it feels very different to me.
The other night I Googled natural anxiety remedies and so yesterday I did yoga and took a lavender bath. Then I got in bed and watched The Bachelorette and ate a chocolate chip cookie (which Google did not recommend, but I do). And I bought some green tea, but then I forgot to drink it. Today I’m feeling a little less anxious, aside from worrying about the bruise I got on … Read More »
Several months ago I was feeling pretty depressed. I was tired, irritable, unsociable. And I had an experience that I thought kind of encapsulated how I was feeling and could provide some insight into a depressed person’s mind. A couple of months after that experience I started writing a blog post, with a cute framing device, to try to share my epiphany with the five very special people who read my blog. This was the start of my post:
Dear Man in the Elevator,
I know this apology is a few weeks overdue but, unlike the rules for thank you notes that my mother drilled into me, I’m not sure on the proper timeline for an apology blog post. But I’m pretty sure that approximately two months is a little long to go without apologizing. So I guess I’m apologizing for two … Read More »
Hey! It’s been over 4 months since I last posted. Here’s some info to get you caught up on my life:
My pop-up shop, Decoupagerie, was held in late November. It went well thanks to the help of my parents, sister, husband, and the super sweet friends who showed up and bought stuff. And thanks to assorted strangers and my firm’s managing partner, who also showed up and bought stuff. I’d like to do another one sometime but I’m going to give everyone a break before putting them back to work.
After the Decoupagerie, I went to sleep. For about 2.5 months. See, in November I started sleeping even more than what had become normal for me. I went to the doctor and was diagnosed with a severe Vitamin D deficiency. I was put on a heavy-duty supplement, and in the past … Read More »
Therapy. Sometimes modern medicine doesn’t do the trick/isn’t the only thing you need to get you feeling better. If that’s the case with you (as it was with me), I would suggest you ask your sweet psychologist friend for recommendations of therapists in your area. If you don’t have a sweet psychologist friend you should go find one and then get a recommendation for a therapist. If your area is sorely lacking in sweet psychologist friend prospects you should move. That place sounds horrible. If moving isn’t feasible, just start asking around. There’s no shame in wanting to go to therapy, and I promise you that your pastor/friend/grocery-store-check-out lady has either been to therapy or knows someone who has and can recommend someone to you. And then you can begin learning how to control your horse, which is what my … Read More »
I can’t remember when I watched Splendor in the Grass, but it must have been late high school, early college. In the movie, (Spoiler Warning*) Natalie Wood goes crazy trying not to have sex in a small Kansas town in the 1920s. She goes so crazy that she has to go to a mental hospital, where she gets to wear white clothes and paint pretty pictures. She eventually gets better and gets to leave the mental hospital, at which time she goes in search of the boy who led to her breakdown, Warren Beatty. But he’s now living in a little shack with a new wife, and it’s very sad.
I hadn’t thought about this movie in a long time, until the other day. Between my freshman and sophomore years of college I had a rough summer mentally, and was diagnosed … Read More »